Yunda @ Work (There should be an eclipse...somewhere)

I'm sorry about the lack of updates. I am just so copped up with work. And I cant seem to get anything going due to lack of motivation. Apparently I just need to chill. Or something. But suddenly yesterday, i had another epiphany (i think thats how its spelt). And my life is changing just like that.

On a side note, its 8.26 am  here in Singapore. I'm in the office and THERE IS NOTHNG INTERESTING ABOUT AN ECLIPSE THAT IS HAPPENING ELSEWHERE. I did not suddenly manifest supernatural powers.

And i really need to find a way to listen to radio. The things i do to listen to radio. I have like a makeshift mini radio station beside me just so I can tune in to 987fm. Haha.

Today is the operation day.

*Tuning out all bad thoughts, bad feelings from my heart and brain*

I miss paintball. Photo attached is of my bosses.

Yunda@Home

Today is a tiring day. Will update sketchy tml or tuesday. I foresee a long long long long week ahead. Not looking forward to it. Seriously. So much on my mind.

Today from 3.30-10.30 was the happiest day in the whole month. Happiness.

Yunda Blares it All

Today could possibly be the worst planned day of my life. And yet today is when I earned another rung on the ladder of self-achievement.

I have a fondness for some people in the office. Girl or guy doesn't matter. Its just a fondness like beyond gender, more than friendship. Like... sibling love. That's it. I don't see it beyond anything. Like elder siblings taking care of me. And they're still damn annoying at times. Very much like my brother and mine, but they don't live under one roof with me. But obviously they wouldn't know. And I've been called alot of things in the office. But sometimes, at the tiniest friction of time, I feel tremendously hurted when such close (in my view only) people calls me an annoying idiot. Am I?

Sigh. I feel hurted today because of something someone said to me. And I'm very proud (yet slightly disturbed at the same time) to say, instead of arguing back, I simply slammed my hands on the table, and went to sit in the toilet till I cooled off. Then when i came back, I saw what he's trying to do. He's trying to... I'm not sure, but something like making me realise there's more I can do. Unleash my potiential, I believe. But surprisingly, I watched my very calm and collected self typed the message back, bearing my hurt on his harsh words, yet ending it off with a very meaningful "thanks". The other half of me wrote the F-word on a piece of paper out of mini F-words (kept in my drawer). Hur hur hur. I'm only human.

Sometimes, when these people express their disappointment to me, I might take it harder than necessary. But i realised, they meant me good. I sincerely believe.

Today I was supposed to go swimming with a friend/colleague of mine. Twice weekly. However something cropped up in office and Fireball needs to go back to office the moment we reached the swimming complex. Sadden really. Kinda feel guilty, like its my fault.

Sigh. Will update with some sketchy metchy in a while's time.

Moody day. Lots of things to think about.

Yunda @ Work

Oh my gods, i am still at work. Its like 4am in the morning. Abit tired. But its all gonna be worth it. After clearing this project, I can concentrate on my other project. 

Yeah, thats one thing to be happy about. And If possible, i wanna go eat Mcd Breakfast later... Hungry..... nom nom nom....

Scrambled eggs...

Too tired to update anymore. Back to WOOORRRKKKK.......

*happiness is being contented with what you have, aka a stale cake with unblown candles at your home while you're in office at 4 am in the morning*

Brrr....

Brrrrr.... Its chilly where I am sitting in the office now.

Okay maybe its a saturday... Okay maybe its a day where people arranged to meet up with me... Okay maybe its a day my mum can see me before the sky turns dark... Okay.. what the hell am I doing at my office?!

Work. And moving place. Currently I've shifted up to 5 times at work! Its like... Woah! Now now, I am not an itchy backside (slang for someone who can't sit still for long periods of time)... nor does my company have sitting arrangements with position (i ain't promoted)... I have my reasons. First few times I've moved its because I'm new, and they haven't yet decide on a place for me. Then I moved on my own accord because my partner-in-crime wanted to move to a colder place, so i Moved. Then i moved for the fourth time because my higher up wanted to keep a closer eye on me. But where I was sitting before this, the air was stale, and no one was there to talk to. I was slowly but surely getting depressed there. And my work attitude dropped to rock bottom and I sucked at everything. Now Here, directly underneath a bad-ass aircon, I am gonna boost my work attitude!

Wow, even when typing this, i feel a chill down my front, not my spine. MY HANDS ARE FREEZING... Tried puffing out a breath of warm air and... Nope, cant see my breath in the air yet. But my brain is working very fast here.

Though its a saturday, I am in great company. Two of my colleagues came back as well. So I ain't alone. And as long I am not alone, I wouldn't get depressed I hope. And one of my colleague is playing a list of chinese songs which is surprising nice and calming. Not those rock rock rock kind, which gets my mood high, but will make my temper short. But I didnt expect my colleague to have that kind of taste. And once again, for dinner, someone treated me. I said once again because previously another really sweet colleague of mine gave me a ride home twice! We took the cab back together. But she refused to take payment from me. Arghhh.. Now i feel that i owe them something. Somehow. Must. Pay. Back. Thats whats singing in my blood. Sigh. I wish i can be more dishonest and just accept the treats.

*boo hoo* I smell like fried fish.

Party Surprise!

Technically it was yesterday, 10th July, but since its only slightly over 1am today, i shall refer to the 10th July 2009 as "today".

We are here today, gathered together, a group of friends that had not been gathering for months or weeks, or even year plus plus, to celebrate the 21st bday of our dearest friend, Akie. May he now rest in piece. Amen. ( I think he'll whack me to bits for this)

Anyways, seriously. He turned 21! A milestone in life that changes most things, though not everything. But surprisingly, this is one of the happier birthday parties I've been to. Though I've not been to many, this is definitely HAPPY. We didnt do anything special, except maybe a friend that he missed came back from overseas and surprised him pleasantly. We went to Orchard Centre, ate at a Mexican Subway-wannabe. Cut cake. Ate Cake. Played guitarheros on the xbox at FunCentre just upstairs of Mexican Subway-wannabe. They were closing store, so we went to Cathay Cineleisure, went to catch some soft toys... *cough cough* And ran to catch the train. I guess its true for the saying, sometimes its just the company that counts.

No one prepared much of a gift. I made a namecard-sized card, got people to write their blessings. (mine was: May you be blessed with the worthy virtues of a Gentlemen) So he can keep in his wallet and remember us when he sees that. And a very very lovely black tie with silvery patterns. I really loved the tie. (Aaaannddddd... the rest didnt have anything... I didnt see anything.) BUT they brought along a most wonderful gift that cant be recieved physically. Their friendship and their well wishes.

Its really a happy celebration. Nothing fancy, yet every bit memorable. I wish the same for all those that means alot to me... May every celebration of yours be memorable, happy and everybit sincere...

*tears*

Stared At @ Work

Today at work, i thought that someone who will never hate me, stared at me in the most hateful way possible that the image seared into my brain. Gosh. All that over a small piece of chocolate and some whip cream. (The Glare! The Glare! Ahhhh!) I used to do such a thing before as a joke, so its like it couldn't be mistaken as NOT a joke, unless you're using this as an outlet for your anger.... *ting ting ting* Anger Management Issues!

I guess that's why you cant really trust anyone on anything at all. I don't hate that someone. Now after that "look", i don't particularly love her/him either. And it WAS someone close to me at work. I guess, influences from Someone Else who have impure thoughts (as in backstabbers) will really changes the most innocent person into someone whose look can be so spiteful.

So, i made a mental note not to offend her/him ever again and to watch out for her/him. You can never be too careful. It doesn't mean I'll stop talking to that someone or start plotting against the someone. Just to be more careful of how I behave.

I made alot of blunders at work again. Sigh. But i must learn to love myself, for no one else (saved for my family) will love me as much as I do. So I will each day after work, remain happy and smiling. Its a motto i believe in. Starting to anyways.

Oh, side note: I'm so nervous about tomorrow. The KK Results are out.

Another side note: I'm forming a band with maaah budddies~!

Peace out!

Doodles Title: Picture of Myself.
Self explanatory.

Panties At Work

Today I had to design for kids' panties for merchandising for one of my company's more well known show. It was hilarious with the way everyone react to it. Heh heh.

Family wise, we're all supportive. Don't worry ma, its REALLY nothing. Tried to be more useful at home, but am still reaching home late. Instead, i focus on trying to teach my brother about his homework. I still got the brains in the family... D'oh!

Tried baking a cake for tomorrow's farewell cum july's birthday babies office party, big mistake. I was so tired when i reached home at around 8.30pm today that I smack went to bake the cake, forgetting that the amount I am Baking is for FOUR people only. (family size, thats how much we bake for ourselves). Then when baking in the oven, i went to snooze. Big Mistake numero two. Its partly burnt, pretty flat, totally not presentable. So i chopped it up and soo gonna make my friendlier colleagues to gobble it down.

I am so mean.

Maybe I can add some posion to posion somone... Heh heh heh.

Ps. This Post is 90% truth, 10% wishing.

Anger Mangement Issues

Bleh, such a horrible day.

Recalled something that makes me feel better yesterday. Sensei Kenji says something wise to me yesterday; " you cant get up if you didnt fall down completely".

I dont have anger management issues. ARGH.

Basically because I don't even have anger management. Bleh.

Tomorrow going to hospital with mah mama, worried like shit. sketching really incoherent stuff. Bleh.

The Emo Job Entry II

SCREAMS! ROAR! WEEP! (like a real man! yeah!)

Today was another horrible day at work. Horrible. And humiliating. I sought for divine help from the shrine shaped like a seat and a bowl at the same time. After sitting on it in solitude for half an hour, i wiped my tears away, went back to my seat, and weep again. Pathetic. But something to be said about me, I tend to draw better, paint better (or at least faster) when i am furious. Anyhoo, here's an update on my latest (and lately only) painting.


And a little clipping of something i like to call "MSN Art". Symbolise something I really feel; about a game? about life on the whole? or about my day at work today which really sucked, and really really pissed me off? Thanks for nothing, Mr B.


Cheerios