It's been so long, yet one can hope.
And because it's been so long, it hit me unexpectedly.
My legs gave way in public yesterday.
While the pain in one leg is excruciating, it's the emotional shock that is unbearable. I had to restrain myself from crying while I hobble along... while polite people try their best not to stare. It's not a big commotion like fainting or something similar. But hobbling still draws non-stares.
I know I should consult a doctor now that it's back. But I'm scared of the results. Without a definite result, one can hope that it'll go away with healthier diets and healthier lifestyle. And besides, one's willpower and faith can do amazing things at times.
I'm not in denial. I just don't see the point in being told once more that there's nothing I can do.
:)
