/B/acon Party

Its weird, a small bunch of 6 of us. Gathering at Mao's place, eating Bacon, bacon, bacon, pork shabu shabu, infinite ham, and drinking only beer and vodka. And all with only one similarity.

AWESOME. Somehow I don't feel out of place with them. I feel really happy. Its a very simple gathering. And somehow, I am really happy despite shit that happened lately.

*Rolls around in childish happiness*

That and I start to find dogs cute.

I lost So Much

Ever have the feeling that though you have acheived something, you lost alot of others? Ever think that though you have monetary items, you lost Hopes? Dreams?

I can eat and afford alot of good stuff ever since -insert start working date here-. Yet all I want right now, is a bowl of homecooked instant noodles with whatever leftovers in the fridge that you can dump in, at 3am in the morning, and tired BUT happy, while doing my work. And anytime i want to, i can pick up my handphone next to me, and my best friends will be available to talk to me to keep me awake. While he or she is doing his or her work at the same time. And my mum to burst into my room, asking me to sleep! And nag non-stop, then end up cooking something in the morning so I can have a hearty breakfast to start another tiring but happy day.



I lost so much. For what?

Illustration.Monday challenge:

Interpretation of Song Title picked by Bubble Princess,

Alpha Beta Gaga by Air.

A very simple post.

Life is as you believe it will be.

If you think its great, its great. If you think it sucks, it sucks.

Sleepless Night

I thought this will never happen to me. But it did.

I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking of someone.

I just can't sleep. My room is in a mess. My table is in a mess. My feelings are also in a mess.

And that someone will be overseas for a long while. While I logically thinks its a great time to get my mind off him, I.. can't sleep. He's not even overseas yet, and already I am missing him.

I am pathetic. All i can do right now, is to draw.

And dammit, but my drawing look so serene and calm.

Somethings Just Don't Change... Does it?

Feeling very emo today.

Yesterday went out to play Left 4 Dead with a bunch of friends.(like close to midnight as work ended VERY LATE AGAIN) CRAZY TIME MAN. Its my first time playing at a LAN place. And hearing them cussing while you scream out of terror and out of purely a need to scream, totally different ambience! Most of the time they were just cussing for me to shut up. Hahahahaha. Funny people. Hahahahaha.

Basically this is how they play:

Nims: "...okay guys we need to stick together...and we ambush them at this junction.."

Pooky: "...when I give the signal..."

Rinny: "...alright. Let's do this..."

From any of their POV, their teammates are poised around the door, their guns pointed at it.

SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT.

Nims: "...quick! In here!"

Pooky: "... saving Rinny..."

Rinny: "...Saved! Protect Pooky, health low!"

-Game End"

My team, basically is very similar. But I don't understand how we can lose. Simply dont.

Eddie: "...okay guys we need to stick together...and we ambush them at this junction.."

KKYZ: "...when I give the signal..."

Me: "...what do I do with this?..."

Eddie: "...HOLYSH- DONT THROW THE FIREBOMB IN THE SAFEROOM!.."

KKYZ: "...HOLYSH- PUT IT DOWN NOW! PUT IT DOWN. DON'T THROW! DON'T!..."

From my POV,teammates are poised around the door, their guns are pointed at me.

SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT

KKYZ: "...quick! In here!"

Me: "AHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHH"

Eddie: "... save me! save me!..."

Me: "AHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHH"

Me strolls past Eddie

Eddie: "YUNDA! HERE! HERE! -CUSS CUSS- MF, you just walked pass me!"

Me: "AHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHH"

Me turned around and shoot.

Eddie: "WHERE YOU AIMING?! AIM THE ONE ON TOP OF ME! NOT AROUND ME! YOU!"

Me: "AHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHH"

I really don't understand how we can lose that badly. 4 digit score to 1 digit score.

Then we played Call of Duty: World at War. I boomered. My friends' first time seeing someone boomered. Guess what? Its my first time boomering when playing a FP game as well.

On a side note, I realize everything that I did affected everyone around me. I will take responsibility. I will admit my mistakes. Not going to run anymore. I'm really sorry for the wrong things that I've done.

And nothing lasts for ever. Not even love. Looking back, I don't regret loving and losing. But I regret losing even before trying. I found a photo of one of this guy I had a HUGE crush on in the past. The thing is I didnt tell anyone about it. By the time someone knew, I was already attached to my ex. So I never knew... And it has become a thing of the past. Looking at the photo, I realized that, I don't want to live my life the same way for the rest of my life.

I regretted not telling you I loved you then. I regretted not trying. But this regret makes me change for the better. I will tell the people I love I love them. Before its too late.

This blog is only known by a few.

So I wouldn't feel exposed if I confess here.

Got to build up courage somewhere right?

So here goes.

I love you, Capybaras. Forever and ever.

Its The Truth

Just came back from another 21st birthday party. (KKYZ's)

Its pretty awesome. VERY BIG PLACE. 2 pool tables that costs 1dollar a game!

Its tons of fun (DJ HERO!!!! -insert scream-, Rockband Wii), food was great (must have costed a bomb), and the Karaoke screen was EPIC. (Its simply a projection on the far wall.)

Hang out abit after that. We had a round of truth and truth. Lots of fun. Lots of things that we found out. Heh heh heh. Snigger snigger snigger.

Very tired.

Nicest thing that someone said to me in a long while, "you're a good person". Simple as that. Instead of putting me down all the time, someone just say something positive about me. I would have cried if not for the fact that I am too shag to even cry. Hah!

Thats to say, despite whatever negative thing someone will say to me in the near future, I'll always remember that, there are people who still appreciate me. Its really nice way to end a weekend. (For me my week starts on a Sunday) I guess I am just kinda used to people close to me say negative stuff to me for too long and for granted.

And I would have cried for one simple reason. After so much fun and love around such lovely friends, its very lonely to be alone. Very.

And I miss Mira. (If you're reading this, I just want to hang out with you again.)

Vain Cat...

... is vain.

(picture from halloween party two days ago)

Can't blog much today though I went home ontime from work (to me its early). Am supposed to do work, but am currently in great pain. Through this pain, I just kept thinking...

I just want to reach out for a hand, to dance the pain away.

Or simply reach out for panadol and warm water. And banana and nuts bread. Surprisingly good.

Goodbye October...

Yesterday was awesome... Its so awesome, I can only put it down in Point forms.

-walked around in Golden Mask, with Cat Ears and Tails in Raffles City with A Bunny Striper (Sorry KKYZ, but it does look like a striper more than a waiter!) and Ip Man. (who can't speak a proper sentence of chinese...Irony!)

-Got stares.

-3 Amigos met up with Shredder (Hojyn) and cont'd walking around City Link (searching for last minute presents).

-Bloody Shredder got Cute Girls running up to him and asking to take photo with him. Alone.
-Realise Singapore is quite sad indeed, what with us being the only group dressed up on Halloween.

-Met another group! (About 5 people)

-Met ANOTHER group! (Took a photo as the kid has neko ears like mine!)

-Met up with friends, finally!

-Jaw dropped as their costumes are all so AWESOME!

-We got
MJ (birthday boy),
Joker,
Witch (Girlfriend of Bruce Lee, we're not implying anything...),
Bruce Lee,
Ip Man (see what happens?),
Polar Bear (Birthday Girl),
Another Neko (but our cat outfits are vastly different, thank you gods!),
Biker Fallen Angel (who really really really looks very cool indeed as Zoro! Now demanding the photo taken with him from mysterious person who took it. Sad to say, I dont remember who took it...),
Surgeon,
Nobody-Loves-Me EmoKid (who tried dying again when I profess love to him),
Bunny Striper (who doesn't strip, but reads your palm instead),
3 Harry Potters (i guess he finally learnt a new spell eh?),
Shredder,
Scream,
Nerd Boy,
Devil (Girlfriend of Nerd Boy),
And... Humans (those who didn't dress up)...

-Party was wild (remember kids, we're already crazy on our own, when we group together, its like giving never-blunting pen knife to a emokid, we slashes our pride away and become entertainment for the night, and then regain pride of being THE entertainment for the night.)

-Then went home in a Cab around 2-3am in the morning, realises I can't see properly with my left eye, my contact lenses for my left eye is missing. And my left eye is hurting like hell. Can't see the contacts... In pain... And when I found the source of the pain and pushed the contacts out of my left eye, I was near to tears... Thus went straight to sobbing on Surgeon's left shoulder as he was unfortunately sitting next to me. Thus taking the virginity of his left shoulder. For those who are interested, his right shoulder virginity was taken by Nobody-Loves-Me Emokid who rested his armpit on it that very same cab ride. Embrassing really, once I realised that i was crying infront of them. Nearly jumped straight up and looked out of the window, pretending nothing happened. Sorry Surgeon!

Thus concluding that... I can't wait for the army friends to ORD, so we can hang out more often and not worry about being arrowed duty any more! I'm with you guys! ORD ORD ORD!


(on a side note: I have really grown fat and ugly. That and all the ladies at the party are GORGEOUS! How they all have changed! GORGEOUS i tell you, GORGEOUS!)