Yunda Blares it All

Today could possibly be the worst planned day of my life. And yet today is when I earned another rung on the ladder of self-achievement.

I have a fondness for some people in the office. Girl or guy doesn't matter. Its just a fondness like beyond gender, more than friendship. Like... sibling love. That's it. I don't see it beyond anything. Like elder siblings taking care of me. And they're still damn annoying at times. Very much like my brother and mine, but they don't live under one roof with me. But obviously they wouldn't know. And I've been called alot of things in the office. But sometimes, at the tiniest friction of time, I feel tremendously hurted when such close (in my view only) people calls me an annoying idiot. Am I?

Sigh. I feel hurted today because of something someone said to me. And I'm very proud (yet slightly disturbed at the same time) to say, instead of arguing back, I simply slammed my hands on the table, and went to sit in the toilet till I cooled off. Then when i came back, I saw what he's trying to do. He's trying to... I'm not sure, but something like making me realise there's more I can do. Unleash my potiential, I believe. But surprisingly, I watched my very calm and collected self typed the message back, bearing my hurt on his harsh words, yet ending it off with a very meaningful "thanks". The other half of me wrote the F-word on a piece of paper out of mini F-words (kept in my drawer). Hur hur hur. I'm only human.

Sometimes, when these people express their disappointment to me, I might take it harder than necessary. But i realised, they meant me good. I sincerely believe.

Today I was supposed to go swimming with a friend/colleague of mine. Twice weekly. However something cropped up in office and Fireball needs to go back to office the moment we reached the swimming complex. Sadden really. Kinda feel guilty, like its my fault.

Sigh. Will update with some sketchy metchy in a while's time.

Moody day. Lots of things to think about.